First, the apology

I started this blog nearly 7 months ago, with every intention of writing more. And yet again, I failed to take into account some of the challenges I have. So, I apologize for the delay in adding to this.

The Challenges I Mentioned

As a way of addressing these difficulties, I thought I'd go ahead and make them the subject of this second post. So here they are:

• Flood or Famine:
  I often find that one of the things I run into is that I may come up with a bunch of ideas when I don't have the time to do something with them, but when I actually sit down to try and think up a post, they all elude me. I am thinking I might create a Joplin note to hold stuff until I can sit down with it, somewhere I can put ideas so they don't get lost in forgetfulness or brain fog.

• I can't Save Time in a Bottle
  There are often too many things I want to do, but time slips away all too easily. I might have every intention of working on something, but time blindness gets the better of me, and before I know it, the day's gone. My hope is that I can work out my sleep schedule to make more time when there's no one else around, like I'm doing today.

• And Spoons Don't Grow on Trees
  Many days, keeping up with my household ends up eating all the spoons I have on any given day, so that there's nothing left for me when all is said and done. "Hey, let's make this complicated dinner that takes all your physical energy to make." "Hey, the dogs need/want XYZ--make it happen." (The italicized bits are the underpinnings, if you will, of the plain text.) So by the time I'm done, there's nothing left. And having to constantly be ready to respond to whatever is on my partner's mind that can't wait for me to actually have open paths to take it in eats a lot of energy, too. Basically, balancing the demands of a household and my own needs and interests is a major challenge to just about anything I intend to do.

• Self-Doubt
  Sometimes I find myself questioning whether anyone will even bother to read what I write. I'm just getting started with this, after all, and I wonder if I'm doing it right. I know it's just me, but it's still something I have to fight through to put words to screen. I just need to trust in the process, trust myself, and let the words come. It's just tough sometimes.

• Idea Gridlock
  Sometimes, when the ideas come too thick, it's hard to sift through them all. They just sort of clump up into a tangled mess of impressions, so that capturing one is like digging through a snake's nest for a lost battery.

Putting it All Together

All this to say, were I to live in isolation, with no distractions, I might have more success, as I could take my time and not lose thoughts as easily as I do. But that's not the case, so I'm having to relearn to be creative in a household that is full of constant demands and distractions. I'm hopeful that, having written these out, it will help me to combat them and write more often.

You Can Help!

Yes, you can. Are there things you wonder about from the perspective of a blind AuDHD person? Let me know, and I'll try to answer them in some AMA posts. I'll credit the asker, unless you ask to be anonymous. You can reach me on Mastodon as @tarrenvane@autistics.life, email, and on Discord as @tarrenvane. Feel free to reach out any time.